A standard work break.

The time it takes to read a book to your child.

A quick workout.

The length of three songs.

Waiting for your food at a restaurant.

The time it takes to fall asleep.

Maybe the drive to work.

Folding and hanging your clothes.

A good shower.

These are all things that last about 15 minutes.  These are all things that last about the length of Benjamin’s entire life, which came and left too soon, exactly one year ago today.

Today should have been so different.  It marks a moment of intense love–a new kind of love–and tremendous loss.  It marks one beautiful, perfect little boy’s entire  life.  A life that forever changed mine.

What are we going to do today?  Celebrate it.  Not with cake and candles and a theme party, but in our hearts and in our actions.  We miss him every single day, and today is no exception.

Happy birthday, my darling son.  Wish you were here.

In the morning it comes, heaven sent a hurricane
Not a trace of the sun but I don’t even run from rain
Beating out of my chest, my heart is holding on to you
From the moment I knew
From the moment I knew

You were the air in my breath, filling up my love soaked lungs
Such a beautiful mess intertwined and overrun
Nothing better than this, ooh, and then the storm can come
You feels just like the sun
Just like the sun

And if you say it’ll be all right
I’m gonna trust you, babe
I’m gonna look in your eyes
And if you say it’ll be all right
I’ll follow you into the light

Never mind what I knew, nothing seems to matter now
Ooh, who I was without you, I can do without
No one knows where ends, how it may come tumbling down
But I’m here with you now
I’m with you now

And if you say it’ll be all right
I’m gonna trust you, babe
I’m gonna look in your eyes
And if you say it’ll be all right
I’ll follow you into the light

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